Syrongrl

Maybe I can outrun this Circling around this town again In my mind, I hear them behind me Freedom through ripping my chest Pop out of this body, deadly pain Before I slip up again Before my mind plays tricks again It's already spinning like a clock Out of control, the gears popping out I'll lose it this time, for no reason This is something we should handle It's only natural. Run, as fast as you can go Get out of here while you can Shut and lock the door They'll always be behind it Where can I head now? My mind is on repeat Help the voices heal Help the thoughts cease These painful dirty images Of a girl too tired, she lost her existence In

Can I be honest with you? Well of course I can You're a piece of text I want to tell someone But I'll be judged again 'Cause I don't deserve to feel this way Cause I don't have a real problem With anything, anymore Life's simple, yet I still hate everything about it Yet I still have hope, as much as I hate it I hate myself, every little thing I hate it so much, I feel so nasty With everything that could be so easily fixed Everything so easily arranged, it could all go away But my mind swirls otherwise "You're still going to die alone" "Insignificant" It doesn't matter anymore I feel like everything's so stupid Everything I feel now, it's just

If I said this is something I didn’t want, It’d be a shitty lie As we all know, I’m not very good, at truly wording things I miss you, still in the deepest parts of my heart There’s so much I want to tell you, I’m finally taking chances I’m finally trying to live, even with this fragile ego `I want to run to you, to tell you I’m moving on But I can’t, not as if there’s no means to ‘Cause there isn’t a chance, not a day goes by Where I don’t think of you Today was the first in a while, where I felt for you But it’s only because I’m scared, scared of the future

I can't save you I can't take on your misery Do you see what this is doing to us? It's tearing us apart - we becoming the very monsters we feared in our darkest dreams The once all night hysterical conversations fade to tense contact to where one of us is a fuse And it's all because you "love me" with the utmost sincerity and heavy weight the phrase can mean Why do you do this to me? Put me on a pedastal, prize possesion of yours. A cherised piece of gold I just wanted the praise, cause I had nothing else to lose Lonely girl meets lonely boy, in this apathetic world Yet due to our age and undying friendship it looks like lonely boy is always

Oh, love. Love can’t you see? You’re slowly killing me! Taking my heart and emotions twirling around and around My neck, it’s hard to breathe, my dear Take me and dump me in the ocean Maybe then I will be able to swim Through the currents that is my tears And your feelings I can’t take much more of this, not anymore It’s going into the meaningless part of me I am getting done with this pointless game Grab the pistol, pull the trigger It’s easier now Dump my body in the dumpster Dump her, dump her! It’s all so much easier when dead Love, oh my love Come on and grab the noose Together we’ll dance

I'm sick of feeling, Sick of living, Sick of trying, Sick of dying, Sick of flying Sick of falling Sick of lying here, Sick of this stupid paralyzing fear Sick of the emptiness, Sick of the everything I want to breathe Yet, I want to suffocate I want to live Yet, I want to die I want to laugh Yet, I want to cry Scream, fight, smile, frown, change, stay the same, fade, shine I want to feel Yet, I want to be numb I'm sick of thinking Sick of hating Sick of loving Sick of dreaming Sick of losing Sick of hoping Sick of moping Sick of believing Sick of listening To their words, now. How can I move forward? When all I want to do is wage war, stand

Festering Carnal Desire Seething, burning desire - consuming all the best of us We want the carnal pleasures - let the flames lick my skin, I want it Yet for us it's not as simple as such I can give in anytime, you know? Prancing around with this sick fantasy Your eyes follow me and this much I can assume The world doesn't approve of such people The darkness draining my will succumbing to nightmares I wouldn't have dared to dream Once upon a time - but that was long age Even she knows, just a little, the doll like qualities she possessed Keep it on the high self, locked up For your entertainment, I'd do anything, my dear Keep it coming, my

"I Just Wanted to Talk to You One Last Time" Rated OT I wonder how today will play out, again? Dedicated to that one teacher who gave me the reason to continue on. This one's for you The day was hot. That kind of sweltering heat you swear would swallow you whole.  A girl, roughly 16 was on her way to school. Her black hair blew gently in the breeze that was trying to soothe the sauna-like atmosphere. Man, it was humid, but how many times had it been like this before? The thought almost felt like there was someone else speaking, but the girl paid no mind. She continued trekking through the humidity as she neared her high school. It was